Meredith turned the ripe old age of one month this past weekend, and yes, another monthly addition of photos will be bestowed upon us all. We switched up the animal; Jack had an elephant, Meredith has an alligator. It’s real exciting stuff over here!

This month has made me realize a couple of things, “pregnancy brain” or the phrase “you’ll forget everything and do it all over again” is completely, completely true!

I thought I was prepared for this homecoming. I was even eager to leave the hospital! Heck, I left a day early. But when I got home, the rush of emotions arrived with me and I caught myself crying to my husband what have we done?  What have we done! on numerous occasions. The tears and the walking zombie returned, as well.  New emotions came flooding in about Jack’s transition; I worried Jack was not getting enough of my attention and tried extra hard to make sure Jack felt loved. Mostly crazy talk.

But there is a silver lining to all this… With Meredith, I find my walking zombie state, though present, doesn’t seem to last as long as it did with Jack. We were able to get out and enjoy the days. Plus, realizing babies DO sleep a lot, I was able to step away from Meredith, leaving Jack and I plenty of one on one time together.

Meredith has given us a couple blissful nights of 4-5 hours of sleeping, but her routine tends to be fickle at best. She’s attached to her mama and would like nothing better than to be with her 24-7, which someday I’m sure I’ll want back. She’s starting to visualize the world around her, following faces, watching her crazy, loving brother, who runs in and out of her view all day … always trying to share his snacks or nuk. She also started cooing and smiling this week, appropriately starting right after Jack danced in front of her while I was making dinner. He’s such the entertainer in the household!

Though these day can be tough and long, and sleep deprived, I have to remind myself just how fast this phase really does go…

Happy Week, Friends!